Thursday, November 19, 2009

What parents do? they fuck you up.

This Be the Verse by Philip Larkin

They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Sex and the city - RERUN

Oh my goodness. I am totally hooked by Sex and the city.

The devil HBO channel is re-running SATC from season 1 to season 6000 plus the movie. It screen 6 episodes in one single night. This makes me being totally unproductive, I abandon my revision, preparation for presentations and essay, and just sit in front of the TV and re-watching SATC.

What is so attractive with SATC? I watched them before in high school. (Yea, it's where I learn how to use the four letters word in "appropriate" context.) I could think of the reasons why I shouldn't watch it, but I cannot think of why I should watch it. It is so weird.

1. None of the leading heroine there are attractive nor young.
2. They are bitchy not witty.
3. It's about man-fucking and man-fucking and man-fucking.
4. It's make you think of yourself being alone and bitchy and harsh when you get 40+. Totally horrifying.
5. Your skin will look "fine" even if you do clubbing+smoking+hangover+getting lay every other day.
6. It creates the fantasy that even if you are 40+ you could still find some guy who is rich + witty + single + kids-free to marry. (Ya. It only happen on screen. LIAR. )
7. It's racist and sexist.

OMG... What is wrong with me? I guess there is some magic in the opening music that draw me in..

My professor - the witty one

I have been studying in my university for so long time. How could I just discover there is one witty professor's class that I haven't took? I guess it's never too late to enjoy the funny lectures in my last year in school.

Some quotes from him:
"Sex and the city is the most conservative and anti-feminism TV drama."

Yea. How true. It's always about MAN and SHOES. Two crucial elements that constitutes women in modern time.

"Trust me. If you could find someone you can trust for the rest of your life, you are very lucky. It is very difficult. Trust me. Ha ha ha."

Recommended movie: The shape of things.

"We should ask why our society is injustice. The bond holders of the Lehman-brother are being suppressed. It's not their fault. It's the injustice society."

"Studying in this discipline [Cultural Studies], you are told ,directly or indirectly, is to CHANGE THE WORLD."

Yea. Our professors are "dare to differ" and dare to change the world.
So, if you are thinking about how to earn a million before your 30, this discipline will tell you how to spend that million to change the world in your 31.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

方烔鑌 猜心


Sunday, November 1, 2009

Living space


我想作者是個在念大學的女子,年輕,應十九至二十頭、她瘦削卻非弱質之輩、滿腔理想的同時亦知現實殘酷的矛盾,有明知不可為而為之的勇氣,卻每天受著資本主義社會的瘋狂摧殘,才會拿著助學金租住 我的一百三十呎的「單位」。



I read an article titled "My 130 sq. feet" and I envy and admire what the writer do. The writer lives in a 130 sq feet room, which included a toilet, bathroom and "kitchen" ( a sink and a facet), cost 2700 Hong Kong dollars (~$340 US) a month. The writer said it is not crowded because the writer could walk 10 steps and turn around in that room. (Ya, some people live in space crowded that this one).

I think the writer must be a girl who still studying in University. (The writer mention the rent is paid by the student grant.) She is young, somewhere between 19 to early 20s. She has a slender body but not fragile. Struggling with the contradiction that the dream that she has and how unrealistic to make them come true in this crazy capitalized city. The belief of making impossible to possible is definitely one of the reason why she live in that little space.

No matter how narrow, un-breathable, dusty and dirty the place is, that is your (her) space. That is solid, independent and private. As time goes by, you are more familiar with the space, and it becomes your home.

I am not brave enough to take that challage. Frist of all, I am broke, I couldn't afford even that small amount of money to pay rent. Even if I could afford the rent, I couldn't bear the fact that the wood-made door is going to break every single minute, the noisyness of buses and cars passing by 24/7.

The only solid space that I have now is my bed, precisely. half of the bulk bed. The other private and kind of independent space that I own is the computer and of course the internet. Sometime I just swift if on, and I read book (real book, book you need to turn pages by hand). It's a sign like I am using this space, don't bother me. It's not secure, it's fluid. That space could happen anytime like at the coffee shop. It's not something that you can hold on and feel satify. You are scared every minute that you are going to lose this space.

If I ever determined and live in that little room, I couldn't last for two weeks. It's because I know that I could go back to my parents' home any moment.

Wish that some day I can move out soon and take the challege of being a grown-up and independent being.